Saturday, May 10, 2008
Mother's Day
Happy Mother's Day! Albeit 1 day early. I took this picture of a bleeding heart flower in my mother's garden. I love it because it is delicate, feminine, complicated, vibrant and strong,- just like a mother's love.
I am posting a few other picture of my mom from her childhood, as a teenager and as a newly-wed. I am posting these because I think it is important for women everywhere, especially on Mother's day to celebrate being mothers (BTW, I use this term loosely!), but also celebrating who they were before being mothers. Pre-and Post- motherhood. It is important for all of us sometimes to remember where we have come from and who we were in order to see how much we've grown into who we are.
I also want to send a special shout out to all my friends who are new mothers (2 this year already!) and one soon to be. I know these bundles of joy are the lights of your life and I am so happy for you!
I am posting a few other picture of my mom from her childhood, as a teenager and as a newly-wed. I am posting these because I think it is important for women everywhere, especially on Mother's day to celebrate being mothers (BTW, I use this term loosely!), but also celebrating who they were before being mothers. Pre-and Post- motherhood. It is important for all of us sometimes to remember where we have come from and who we were in order to see how much we've grown into who we are.
I also want to send a special shout out to all my friends who are new mothers (2 this year already!) and one soon to be. I know these bundles of joy are the lights of your life and I am so happy for you!
Saturday, May 3, 2008
friends....
Sometimes I feel so blessed to have such wonderful friends. To be surrounded by such giving, kind, passionate, funny and compassionate people makes me happier and a better person. I think that it is rare to have so many special people in one's life, and so therefore, I feel blessed. I can honestly look back on my life so far and say that there have always been loved ones present when I needed someone the most. In times of lonliness, I don't have to look very far to see that there are people who love me all around me, but that it is me who is closing the window. I have to try to remember to keep that window cracked or even better, wide open so the breeze can blow in and stur things up a bit.
I love this time of year. Spring. Spring and fall are my favorite seasons, I think I like it because like most things, these seasons are in the gray area - not too hot, not too cold, just right. I think as I get older, I am appreciating and respecting this "gray area." This gray area is the place that most of us live most of the time. Navigating this fog can at times be extremely hard because we can't see where we are going, nor can we see where we've been. It's cloudy, murky and dark. But remembering that just like the seasons, time will continue ticking and eventually, with patience and hope, the fog will lift, the birds will sing, the sun will rise, the sun will set, and we will keep moving on. It is surviving this fog that can be difficult and that is where the friends come in.
Friends can help us move on. Long time friends have been there through these dard times. They have held our hands, cried with us and know our histories. New friends bring energy and new ideas. They can remind us to live when we need reminding.
Sorry I've got so many ramblings tonight. I feel like so much is going on with people I know, jobs being lost, medical issues, family problems and life disappointments. I wish I could make everything better. Hopefully my friends know that I love them and support them, no matter what is going on, and I hope they too will remember to keep that window open for me.
I love this time of year. Spring. Spring and fall are my favorite seasons, I think I like it because like most things, these seasons are in the gray area - not too hot, not too cold, just right. I think as I get older, I am appreciating and respecting this "gray area." This gray area is the place that most of us live most of the time. Navigating this fog can at times be extremely hard because we can't see where we are going, nor can we see where we've been. It's cloudy, murky and dark. But remembering that just like the seasons, time will continue ticking and eventually, with patience and hope, the fog will lift, the birds will sing, the sun will rise, the sun will set, and we will keep moving on. It is surviving this fog that can be difficult and that is where the friends come in.
Friends can help us move on. Long time friends have been there through these dard times. They have held our hands, cried with us and know our histories. New friends bring energy and new ideas. They can remind us to live when we need reminding.
Sorry I've got so many ramblings tonight. I feel like so much is going on with people I know, jobs being lost, medical issues, family problems and life disappointments. I wish I could make everything better. Hopefully my friends know that I love them and support them, no matter what is going on, and I hope they too will remember to keep that window open for me.
Saturday, April 19, 2008
What a week....
Well,
I have to share with my blogging friends that this has been one hell of a week. I spent most of the week at work - working 11 and 12 hour days. Needless to say, there were some highlights, like being offered a position to chair the interdisciplinary committee, and even though I was working hard at grading and lesson planning, I feel like I was at least preparing good, solid lessons. It always makes me feel good when a lesson is received well, it is fun and interesting and the girls seem to enjoy it. We are learning about body systems now, and for the girls, this is their favorite part of biology. Honestly, I think it is partly because they can relate it very easily to themselves, and as teenagers, this is what they are most concerned about at the moment. :-) Sometimes I just have to remember that they are teenagers and not the most mature adults I would like them to be. At the same time, there is a level of respect that I feel even 5 year old should have that some of these students don't.
With that in mind, let me tell you that my boss got an email from a parent saying essentially, "my daughter has had a rough year all year, and we have done everything we can, including her meeting regularly with Ms. Wilson, and as a family loving, supporting, and encouraging our daughter. We would like to talk to you about what a horrible time she is having in biology." There was more, but you get the jist. Meanwhile, she has come to see me once the entire semester, her grades have never deviated from the low 80's the entire year, she barely participates in class, has never sought out the Resource Center at school, the advisors don't know about this, I have never heard from these parents before, and this is the first I've heard of her "horrible experience." It is a low blow that has come out of nowhere. And what is interesting is my reaction. I am more hurt by this than others that have come my way. Why is "the family" waiting until mid-April to spring this on me? Not to mention they CC'ed my director, "who if appropriate, they would like to have in on this conversation." What is this???? It is hard for me to keep this in context because I have been struggling particularly with this class, and I KNOW there are others (all her friends who run the class) who feel the same way. I am tired of trying to get their attention, make them interested, make them think, and allow them to learn. If only they could see that their negativity is shooting them in the foot.
I must say, that this is very hard to take. I work my butt off and it seems that there is no appreciation from the people I want it from the most. It just sucks. At times I feel like I am in the same situation I was in at Dana-Farber. I know that my colleagues support me, and I have the support of my dept. chair and division director, but it isn't quite the same as support from the students.
What is really funny is that last week I got a thank you note from one of my seniors who wasn't a star student, struggled in my classes, but I wrote her a recommendation for college because she always tried so hard. Last night I read this note again, and honestly, it just made me sadder. I think because I had such a good year last year, I really connected with the students, I am going to be very sad to see them go.
I am putting this thank you note in this blog; not to boast, but to make me feel better and to remind myself that I am a good teacher and that this year, I really did get stuck with some bad apples.
Ms. Wilson,
I want to extend my greatest thanks to you for writing my college recommendations. I am delighted to say I was accepted at and will be attending my number one choice- Georgetown! I realize how much time and effort goes into writing the recs. I know you especially were bombarded, something I hope you took as a sign that your students felt like they thrived in your class and developed a close teacher-student relationship with you. I was lucky enough to have you in science for two years and in that time, I never felt timid about coming to you if I had a question or concern. In a short time you have established yourself as one of the most kind and passionate teachers in the school who truly cares about the students' well beings. Science has never been my forte but you made it an enjoyable experience. Thank you once again for the recommendations. I really appreciate everything you did for me.
Best wishes,
I have to share with my blogging friends that this has been one hell of a week. I spent most of the week at work - working 11 and 12 hour days. Needless to say, there were some highlights, like being offered a position to chair the interdisciplinary committee, and even though I was working hard at grading and lesson planning, I feel like I was at least preparing good, solid lessons. It always makes me feel good when a lesson is received well, it is fun and interesting and the girls seem to enjoy it. We are learning about body systems now, and for the girls, this is their favorite part of biology. Honestly, I think it is partly because they can relate it very easily to themselves, and as teenagers, this is what they are most concerned about at the moment. :-) Sometimes I just have to remember that they are teenagers and not the most mature adults I would like them to be. At the same time, there is a level of respect that I feel even 5 year old should have that some of these students don't.
With that in mind, let me tell you that my boss got an email from a parent saying essentially, "my daughter has had a rough year all year, and we have done everything we can, including her meeting regularly with Ms. Wilson, and as a family loving, supporting, and encouraging our daughter. We would like to talk to you about what a horrible time she is having in biology." There was more, but you get the jist. Meanwhile, she has come to see me once the entire semester, her grades have never deviated from the low 80's the entire year, she barely participates in class, has never sought out the Resource Center at school, the advisors don't know about this, I have never heard from these parents before, and this is the first I've heard of her "horrible experience." It is a low blow that has come out of nowhere. And what is interesting is my reaction. I am more hurt by this than others that have come my way. Why is "the family" waiting until mid-April to spring this on me? Not to mention they CC'ed my director, "who if appropriate, they would like to have in on this conversation." What is this???? It is hard for me to keep this in context because I have been struggling particularly with this class, and I KNOW there are others (all her friends who run the class) who feel the same way. I am tired of trying to get their attention, make them interested, make them think, and allow them to learn. If only they could see that their negativity is shooting them in the foot.
I must say, that this is very hard to take. I work my butt off and it seems that there is no appreciation from the people I want it from the most. It just sucks. At times I feel like I am in the same situation I was in at Dana-Farber. I know that my colleagues support me, and I have the support of my dept. chair and division director, but it isn't quite the same as support from the students.
What is really funny is that last week I got a thank you note from one of my seniors who wasn't a star student, struggled in my classes, but I wrote her a recommendation for college because she always tried so hard. Last night I read this note again, and honestly, it just made me sadder. I think because I had such a good year last year, I really connected with the students, I am going to be very sad to see them go.
I am putting this thank you note in this blog; not to boast, but to make me feel better and to remind myself that I am a good teacher and that this year, I really did get stuck with some bad apples.
Ms. Wilson,
I want to extend my greatest thanks to you for writing my college recommendations. I am delighted to say I was accepted at and will be attending my number one choice- Georgetown! I realize how much time and effort goes into writing the recs. I know you especially were bombarded, something I hope you took as a sign that your students felt like they thrived in your class and developed a close teacher-student relationship with you. I was lucky enough to have you in science for two years and in that time, I never felt timid about coming to you if I had a question or concern. In a short time you have established yourself as one of the most kind and passionate teachers in the school who truly cares about the students' well beings. Science has never been my forte but you made it an enjoyable experience. Thank you once again for the recommendations. I really appreciate everything you did for me.
Best wishes,
Sunday, April 13, 2008
Prom
So last night I went to my second prom! Yes, I was a chaperone at the BMS prom at the Belvedere in Baltimore. The room was gorgeous, huge ceiling, white linen table cloths, large dance floor, girls and boys dressed up, and their hair and make-up done. It was a great night, only a few minor mishaps (injuries-being stepped on), and it was so nice to see the juniors and seniors having fun, being grown up, and dancing to "Shout"! I had a moment when they were jumping up and down, singing and smiling, and I thought, "oh, to be young like that!". It made me smile, and reminded me why I love teaching these kids. I feel like that song can bring out the kid in anyone, and I wished I could jump right in with them. I needed that, it has been a rough year.
By the end of the night, my feet hurt and I couldn't stop yawning, but I slept in this morning, and all is well.
By the end of the night, my feet hurt and I couldn't stop yawning, but I slept in this morning, and all is well.
Thursday, April 10, 2008
Inspiring
I saw this last night on Primetime. http://abcnews.go.com/GMA/LastLecture/
If you need some inspiration.....
If you need some inspiration.....
Saturday, April 5, 2008
What a week!
Well, I did it to myself, but that is what eternal procrastinators do, right? Rough week with grades and comments due on Wednesday. I had fun on Thursday night when several friends came over to watch the TV show Miss Guided. It is about a high school guidance teacher and the school she works in. It is hilarious and it reminded me of old times in Spencer watching Friends, crowded on the sofas eating pizza.
Yesterday I did a really fun lab using Betta fish and looking at animal behavior. I think the kids seemed to enjoy it, it is hard to get them excited sometimes. I think the next unit on Body Systems always sparks enthusiasm, but unfortunately, I really don't care for it too much. I'm not a doctor, don't wish to be, and usually all they ask are...."My uncle has this problem...." type of questions. ugh. Oh well, I am seeing the light at the end of the academic tunnel, and things are going to speed by the rest of the year.
Last night I came home to my parents to see them (and get some laundry done!). It was great to catch up.
This weekend will be full of grading, since they just finished a project, I have 120 posters and handouts to grade.
Oh, well, at least I don't have to write comments anymore.
When you get a chance, check this out:
http://stuffwhitepeoplelike.wordpress.com/full-list-of-stuff-white-people-like/
Yesterday I did a really fun lab using Betta fish and looking at animal behavior. I think the kids seemed to enjoy it, it is hard to get them excited sometimes. I think the next unit on Body Systems always sparks enthusiasm, but unfortunately, I really don't care for it too much. I'm not a doctor, don't wish to be, and usually all they ask are...."My uncle has this problem...." type of questions. ugh. Oh well, I am seeing the light at the end of the academic tunnel, and things are going to speed by the rest of the year.
Last night I came home to my parents to see them (and get some laundry done!). It was great to catch up.
This weekend will be full of grading, since they just finished a project, I have 120 posters and handouts to grade.
Oh, well, at least I don't have to write comments anymore.
When you get a chance, check this out:
http://stuffwhitepeoplelike.wordpress.com/full-list-of-stuff-white-people-like/
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